Today is March 20th. My due date is June 20th. That means there is exactly 3 months, or 13 weeks until this baby is due.
The reality has set in. I find myself no longer questioning whether he will make it, as much as how he will get here, if he will be healthy, and whether he will be so early that he will require special care.
I also find myself suddenly wanting to get ready for him.
Until now I was convinced I wanted nothing baby in my house until he arrived. My plan was to have 10-12 onesies and sleepers (enough to get through a week or so), a package of diapers and toiletries, a car seat and a bassinette. The rest, I figured could wait until I was ready to take him out. I was so set on not have to pack up baby stuff if something went wrong that I specifically instructed my family and friends not to send me any baby things until after he was born. I knew they were buying stuff, that was inevitable, but as long as they had to put it away if something happened, I was ok with that.
Now I want to make a list of all the things we have to do. I want to get started on it. I want to go shopping, and get excited.
I have been very surprised by my reaction to this pregnancy from the beginning. I knew that I would be scared (affected by my previous miscarriage and the miscarriages of my blogging friends) but I didn't realize that my reaction to that fear would be to not believe that the baby would make it. But I didn't, right up to the end of the second trimester I had serious doubts.
And yet, I have been unable to do anything but navel gaze for the past 6 months either. Although I didn't believe I would actually take home a baby, I have been obsessed with what's going on inside my body. Unable to think, or write, about anything else.
I am not sure this bodes well for the future of this blog.
Here is me today, with 3 months left. How big do you think this belly can get?
15 comments:
It is about time you started to get ready for this little guy!
He will be here before you know it.
You look adorable! You are in what was my favorite part of pregnancy. Big enough to be obviously pregnant, not too big too where the aches and pains have set in. Enjoy this time! It is so special. I'm glad you're ready to start buying more for the little guy, too.
You look gorgeous. I am so excited to hear your excitement!
I'm glad you are getting excited. It took me awhile too. And I used to sit in her nursery and rock in her chair and try and imagine what it would be like once she was here. And I could never wrap my head around the fact that I was going to get a real live baby out of this deal. And, now she's almost 6 months old. Honestly, sometimes I still sit and stare at her and try to wrap my head around it.
That's wonderful. Congratulations!!! How great that you can finally let yourself be excited about buying all the baby fixins!
You look beautiful. I'm so glad that you're ready to get ready! :)
Hey, girl! You look gorgeous!
I have experienced the same round of crazy emotions you just described. I'll be 30 weeks tomorrow and last week we ordered our crib. Get this ... we actually got a non-refundable one! After 3 devastating losses, this is our first investment because we finally believe our baby will survive! We're going to unpack furniture, and yes, even repaint a dresser. Daring girl that I am, might even buy a border for the nursery! I'm even having a baby shower! Yes, girl ... get excited ... it is so much better than spending this joyous time on the sidelines! I'm taking my own advice!
You look fantastic!
It's great to see you getting so excited.
I was so scared to let myself start preparing, too. It really is exciting once you let yourself go there, though. Have fun with it!
What a lovely belly. CELEBRATE IT! Congratulations on deciding to get ready for him. Exciting times are ahead!
holy beautiful belly batman!!!! you look awesome!
and i can feel your excitement brewing!!
enjoy!
peace
shlomit
Its me that's going crazy, I could have swore I too left a comment on this post!?
Anyway, you're still glowing and just the right amount of bloom too :)
I'm having probs replying via email to you, the two emails I have don't work!
Great belly shot!! You looks so adorable! I love the feeling when I finally let my guardown and started feeling excited. Enjoy every moment of it. It goes by so quickly!!
Krista -
You look so beautiful pregnant!! I am SOOO happy that you are doing so well.
Hugs,
Maya
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